Welcome to my online sanctuary of all things Inspired and Fabulous.
I’m a Beautiful You life coach + Alimyyah graduate + self-love advocate + happiness seeker + all round wellness junkie.
I work with incredible Muslim Women (like you) who are seeking to create a beautiful life, infused with deep love, fiercely connecting with your heart to manifest your wildest dreams. I gently walk you through limiting beliefs, mindset shifts and challenge deeply held fears with gentle accountability and lots of giggles. (It’s not all so serious 😉 )
If you’d like to rediscover the zest and passion you once embodied for life, head over here and check out my coaching packages on offer. And if you’re a curious little soul like me who loves to connect and discover more about people, continue reading below.
Even though my blog indulges in femininity, pink pastels and positivity, it transpired from a very dark place.
2012 marked the year of my severest depression, a desire to no longer live and a desperate plea to Allah to cease my life. Just when I thought I reached the peak of my iman, it all came crushing down. In the space of a few hours, set the tone of what was the absolute hardest year of my life. When everything in this world lost its appeal and even my own life came into question.
I lived in a bubble. People would always tell me how lucky I am, how easy my life was and how I had no problems apparently! Obviously not true but I did have it easy. I had no idea about pain and hardship. I’d be babbling on about being positive and having a great attitude and people would reply ‘easy for you to say, you’ve never had anything to worry about!’
It came after a high period in my life, where I fell sooo deep. All I see was a young girl who was in so much pain. Just before the depression hit, I was in the highest state of my iman. I spent 7+ hours daily studying the best Islamic books in Arabic with some of the most prominent scholars in the UK. I would read Quran daily and bawl my eyes out because it was so touching. I was laser focused on improving my career, family, health and society. Yet, despite all my efforts in the space of a few hours – none of it mattered. It all came crumbing down, one after the other.
This marked the beginning of several months of uncontrollable tears, hopelessness, anger and pain like no other. To the point where I remember so clearly begging Allah to take my life away, whilst I’m still a Muslim because I could no longer guarantee that myself.
When family and relatives would visit, I would lock myself in the bathroom repeatedly to hide my tears. One night as I cried myself to sleep. Hiding under the duvet cover, to wipe away my tears, thinking that this is the lowest point in my life. And that I will never, ever get this low again. Never. That night, I promised myself that I will get out of this mess – I don’t care if it took me 10 months or 10 years, I was going to live to see myself happy. That’s it. I didn’t want the designer bags, fancy houses or luxurious holidays. I wanted to be happy.
So I searched frantically for help everywhere – some of the people that I trusted the most be they scholars, lecturers etc. gave me the worst advice. I remember asking a scholar from Saudi Arabia for advice and his answer was pathetic. “Oh don’t worry about it, just have faith in Allah”.
It took me nearly a year and a half to fully get out of this mess. I studied everything I could possibly get my hands on to support me. From life coaching, emotional healing, therapy, counselling, NLP, psychology, tazkiyyah, holistic healing, personal development etc.
I can finally go through an entire day without breaking down or letting small things trigger my pain. It’s forced me to get my priorities straight and appreciate the smaller blessings in life. Without depression I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. I’m more happier than ever. And more stronger than ever. After being on a roller-coaster of misery, it’s the best feeling in the world to wake up and consciously create a life you love.
When I hit rock bottom, I had to rebuild my life from scratch, day by day. I’ve had to be own biggest cheerleader and bestie throughout this journey. I’ve had to re-evaluate and sit with myself hundreds of times to quieten down my inner mean girl and connect with that innocent, open-hearted, vulnerable little girl – that we all have inside of us.
Why Inspired & Fabulous?
I quickly realized that most of the advice out there is aimed at men and completely overlooks the fact that women have different emotional needs and approaches to men. This is where Inspired & Fabulous comes in. For women who want to express their passions and creativity to the world whilst being wonderful mothers, ah-mazing wives and deeply passionate women.
It’s about being a multifaceted woman.
Inspired = ambitious, hard working, driven, purposeful, dedication, perseverance, healthy independence – (masculine qualities).
Fabulous = appreciation, gratitude, embracing the present, compassion, positivity, honouring your rhythm and mood, connection – (feminine qualities).
You can be eye candy + soul food 😉 You can conquer this world in a wonderfully feminine way without sacrificing loving relationships, deen or confining to society’s expectations.
So there you have it – my story in overcoming depression and getting back my life again.
For all that I’ve learnt and for the woman that I am today, I would never take any of it back. Depression was the darkest days of my life. It brought me to my knees and tore every inch of me apart. But I thank Allah for the experience. Without it, I wouldn’t be connecting with you today. Without it, I wouldn’t experience the inner happiness and joy as I do today. Have a wonderful day!